SHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHIT

shit mood, shit life, shit person.
I have no career path in life which is slightly worrying as i'm leaving college in approximately 10 wks and hopefully launching myself into a dissatisfying, degrading job as an apprentice tattooist which will see me through nothing but lack of money for 2 years. Two years or so working and no money.

I'm shit at almost anything, i have no proof of success in any aspect of my life, i feel like a complete failure (mainly to myself?), i'm a shite girlfriend, i feel angry all the time, and last night pretty much summed up my relationship and caused me to initially break down, so fuck knows whats to come next. I'm unhappy.

The Beloved- Sweet harmony.

I've woken up pretty hungover and im gonna be a true rebel and bunk college for the full, day means i get to spend it with sean tho, which as a matter of fact is my favourite thing to do latey, even if i have been a bit of a psycho bitch and i think he's been a bit of an ignorant, distant twat, but i think we sorted all that out yesterday and its safe to say, no matter how shit things go between us i still love him more than i coould possibly love anything else in the world.

I also came to the conclusion last night both drink and smoking,(smokin which ive been trying really hard to give up btw) are so shit for me, i dont just mean my health either i just mean life. Ive not enjoyed drinking the past few times its happened anyway and to be honest, even if i do, the hangover is never worth it.
So ive woken up this morning and said no more fags, or drinking at all now,and no more junk food cos there was some skinny bitches out there last night and they were damn sexy. Im just too fuckin chunky.

However, i took this piture this morning as i woke up, i dunno why, my webcam has shown the vanity in both me and sean, but to be completely blunt here, im rather impressed that some days, i can actually wake up looking half decent with my pencilled eyebrows still i tact and my foundation still looking pretty6 smooth, and my hair looking better than it has done for days, unbrushed and messy.
LOVE IT.

WOW;

chelsea hasn't updated in a while.

i should probably update more often...so im gonna try not that anybody but me reads this thing.
my past few weeks havent consisted of much exciting, probabloy cos ive been a miserable bitch for weeks now, i blame BSFC and my over expenditure, the hole burnt into every pocket and my purse. I can't save and its shit.

Its been half term which was pretty good, didn't want to go back to normal life whatsoever like, but today was my first day. It was shit.SUPRISE SURPRISE. My half term was pretty snazzy though, just, slept and watched tv and sat off with sean pretty much everyday, had a hangover which was magically and gratefully cured by notting hill and coffee.

Ive also got a rather annoying sleep definciency lately, or more getting to sleep is the problem but i get pretty concerned when i look at my clock just as im drifting off to sleep and realise i have less than 8 hours sleep to come, proper gets me down.
(see this is whyy i should update more often cos i just end up rambling on for ages!)Slight irritance coming from a few people at the moment and myselfr, but hey, there always fucking is with me.

On a happier note, i got a photoshoot done by Cat Kershaw on thursday just gone, it was free and went well as i came out of it with £50's worth of photo's, only 3 cos all people want to do nowadays is rip you offr but like i said, it was free and we did it kinda FRONT style and i ended up a very happy lady, with a satisfying outcome ;)

I'm aloud to be vain on this one occassion...